Mommy guilt overdose
PMS is in full swing and I've been on the verge of tears for a few days now. Today, the flood gates opened.
Not only is it my oldest boy's last day of elementary school - with a teacher who helped him "get it" and a team of special teachers who really helped him from dyslexia to speech and everything in between. He worked hard - with his teacher riding his back this last six weeks - and brought his grades up to straight As.
So, I had that on m mind and was fighting back tears.
Then, I find an invitation in Hot Rod's notebook THIS morning that he was getting a special award during an assembly Thursday morning. I didn't even know about it. He showed me his math award last night, but I thought it was one of those that every kid gets for finishing their work or something. Nope, he got it for the whole first grade and I could have been there and I wasn't. I fell apart. With 15 minutes to go before doing a phone interview with a top executive at a company, I was crying so hard I was almost throwing up. I just feel awful.
So, I'm off to get the boy a frame for his award and I'll reward him tonight for it. All the while, kicking myself.
Not only is it my oldest boy's last day of elementary school - with a teacher who helped him "get it" and a team of special teachers who really helped him from dyslexia to speech and everything in between. He worked hard - with his teacher riding his back this last six weeks - and brought his grades up to straight As.
So, I had that on m mind and was fighting back tears.
Then, I find an invitation in Hot Rod's notebook THIS morning that he was getting a special award during an assembly Thursday morning. I didn't even know about it. He showed me his math award last night, but I thought it was one of those that every kid gets for finishing their work or something. Nope, he got it for the whole first grade and I could have been there and I wasn't. I fell apart. With 15 minutes to go before doing a phone interview with a top executive at a company, I was crying so hard I was almost throwing up. I just feel awful.
So, I'm off to get the boy a frame for his award and I'll reward him tonight for it. All the while, kicking myself.
4 Comments:
At 11:22 AM, May 26, 2006,
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At 11:23 AM, May 26, 2006,
Greaneyedgemini said…
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At 8:22 PM, June 01, 2006,
Army of Mom said…
Thanks guys. You would flog me tonight if you knew what I did today.
*sigh*
Off to self-flagelate.
At 12:16 AM, June 05, 2006,
Devra said…
I have come to absolve you of your mommy guilt! ; )
you have probably attended more stuff than what you have missed, and you most likely will keep this track record for the duration as best you can. Kids have a great way to deal with mistakes, they ask for a "do over" and usually we let them if they are upset, right? So allow yourself the same. Just say "do over" and figure out a way to do it over so you don't feel so crummy. Take your son out for a special walk, let him stay up a little later than usual, wake him up early with a special breakfast, make him a home made card. Kids are much more forgiving of us than we are of ourselves.
Now, do you feel absolved? If not, I can get Aviva over here and we can tag team you!
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