Army of Mom

So this is how liberty dies ... with thunderous applause.


Give it to me straight, doc

On second thought, don't tell me the worst case scenario. K?


There is so much that I don't know where to start. A few weeks ago, I had an episode in which my vision went pixelated on the far right side for about 30 minutes. It did that pixelization thing and then I had some blind spots. The next night, I believe I had a petit mal seizure. I experienced these as a girl, but hadn't had one since I was about 23. I stopped taking medication when I was around 24 because it was known to cause birth defects and I wanted to have a healthy baby - so I knew I needed to get it out of my system before becoming pregnant. Anyway. I was sitting at the computer and it came on.

Then, about a week later I started having that feeling like your feet are going to sleep - that pins and needles feeling. Except, it wasn't brief. It lasted for about four hours in my right leg. Then, it came back in both legs. It has gotten worse over the past week or so. It had been only when I stayed in one position for too long. Now, it does it when I'm sitting, standing, exercising, you name it. They hurt as often as not. Apparently, this is called paresthesia.

I started immediately thinking of Type 2 Diabetes. I'm chunky and sedentary and the symptoms all make sense. He checked my circulation in my arms and legs and it is fabulous, so that is good.

The doctor is leaning more toward something neurological. Yippee. No comments about something being wrong with my head - we knew that already.

He did order a blood test to check my lipids. They are "abnormal" and I return in the morning for a fasting lipid-something blood test. So, I likely have high cholesterol. No surprise there as I eat ground beef and french fries way too much.

After the blood test, I go for an MRI and EEG. He wants to verify that I did have a seizure and one of those tests should confirm that. He also said it will help him rule out a tumor, aneurysm or MS. Thanks, doc, just what I wanted to hear. He said our best case scenario is simply that my epilepsy has returned and I will resume meds and monitoring for that. And, well, I'm not sure what could be worse than a tumor, aneurysm or MS.

I know just enough medical jargon and information to be dangerous and paranoid. I've been exhausted for the past month, overwhelmed emotionally and not really myself. Army of Dad had an intervention for me on our date night Saturday. He gave me the lecture about how I need to take better care of myself by exercising. My self-imposed pity party is over. I heard what he said. Coming from a guy who HATES the whole communication stuff, for him to say something, I know he is worried about me. I have to take that seriously.

So, I worked my computer to its circuits today, quit feeling sorry for myself and even put on makeup! I got out the exercise bike and have ridden it a couple of times. I figure a slow start is better than no start.

So, there it is. I couldn't possibly let ArmyWifeToddlerMom out-do me with tales of her wuthering uterus. So, take your hysterectomy and I raise you the threat of MS and brain tumors. HA!

Ok, seriously folks. I'm fine and I'm sure the doctor's final words will be the case when I asked him about his prognosis:

"We may never know what the cause was and it may go away on its own. We just need to rule out the worst."


  • At 6:10 AM, August 23, 2006, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    There are a lot of people that care about you, and you'll get through this just fine.

    Most of us don't take as good care of ourselves as we should. It's hard to do when you work all day, chase kids (some with special needs), try to keep a house in order, and remember to keep milk in the fridge. And right now I'm doing this alone as my hubby is in Wisconsin (and has been since May) working.

    It stresses you, and then your body revolts and you didn't even see it coming.

    So hang in there...we'll be thinking of you on this end!

  • At 8:21 AM, August 23, 2006, Blogger Rachelle Jones said…


    I hate to hear this.

    you win the illness poker, I am folding.

    please keep me up to date...

    oh and the uterus, I am done with the damn thing anyway...

    e-mail me. MS? Christ...I will say a prayer...

  • At 8:38 AM, August 23, 2006, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    I had some vision problems and headaches and a one of my pupils is sometimes larger than the other...all signs of a brain tumor. I went through all of the testing...and nothing. They ended up saying that one of my pupils reacts differently to light than the other one...AND... gave me glasses for computer work.

    I was not convinced and this lead to 6 months of panic attacks and about a 20 pound weight loss. So, please don't let it get to you as it did to me :-) ***Saying a prayer*** and keeping you in my thoughts~

    And on the eating healthy issue...isn't it strange how we worry what the right grade of gas is that we put in our cars...and don't worry about how we " fuel" our bodies???? I'm guilty too. But if I try to look at it like we eat to make our bodies function and work makes it easier ( yeah, I am smokin' crack).

    I LOVE to eat...and I LOVE anything sweet. I do good for a while...and then fall off the wagon again....but, I keep trying LOL


  • At 9:50 AM, August 23, 2006, Blogger Army of Mom said…

    Well, if nothing but a giant stack of medical bills comes of this, I will be eternally grateful. I have learned a valuable - albeit costly - lesson to get off my ass and give up Dr Pepper.

    Thanks for the good wishes.

    I've been bled today, won't know about that for 48-72 hours.

  • At 10:51 AM, August 23, 2006, Blogger Rachelle Jones said…

    Listen first off, do not be to hard on yourself.

    I have been taking excellent care of myslef, until I got, eating right, walking at least 4 miles 2-3 times a pop, no crap...

    and I got sick.

    Sometimes it just happens.

    So do take care of yourslef, you have husband and babies who need you....

  • At 1:42 PM, August 23, 2006, Blogger Gadfly said…

    Ah shit.

    This is what you need right now, huh?

    Stress can be a key player in bringing those kind of minor epileptic glitches out. I bet just getting a little regular exercise would help a lot.

    Yeah, I know. I talk the talk, but don't seem to be walking the walk. *sigh* Best of luck.

  • At 3:38 PM, August 23, 2006, Blogger Army of Mom said…

    Well, I read today that August is considered "suicide season" among mental health professionals and I can understand. I have had the crummiest emotional month I've had in a LOOOONG time. No particular reason why that is unusual over other months either.

    I survived the day, even though I look like a heroin addict with all the track marks and bruises on my right arm. I'm such a dunce that I didn't pay attention to the MRI "with contrast" which means they inject something into you for part of the test. GEEOOD. More blog fodder, I guess, if nothing else.


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