Army of Mom

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A breast road map

I met a lady at work today who is finishing up chemotherapy for breast cancer. She was an attractive lady, about 50ish. We were talking about all she had to go through and I felt a kinship with her. My supervisor was there and teasing her for not getting out and trying to date, get busy, etc. But, I sense how she feels - she has little or no desire because she doesn't feel desirable. She described her breasts as looking like they had road maps on them from the chemo, radiation and surgeries. She is tired, she has lost her hair and no matter what you think - if you have not been faced with losing your breasts, you have no idea how it impacts who you are as a woman. Our breasts are central to who we are - they epitomize our femininity. It is how we feed our offspring, it is one of the things (ok two of the things) that make men want us ... anyway. I know my lump is still in there in my left breast and I wanted to cry for her and for me. It scared the hell out of me to think about what may lie ahead for me if I have to have the lump removed this summer. Just reminded me that it is still there - hopefully not growing.


  • At 10:38 PM, February 24, 2005, Blogger Army of Mom said…

    Thanks. It sounds like you understand the fears WAY too well. After my mom had a radical mastectomy while I was in college, it has been one of my fears. I feel that I will inevitably have breast cancer and I've faced that, but it is still very scary when I'm confronted with it in a very upclose way. I go back for another ultrasound of my tumor in July and face the potential of having it removed. But, I feel like that is a better option than letting it grow and grow. We'll see what time brings me.


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